Friday, September 17, 2010

The joys of stay at home motherhood and other ramblings....

Two years ago this month Jamey sprung the surprise that he wanted to go active duty again on me. I was stunned....thoughts like "What you aren't happy with our life like it is??" and "Why on earth are we doing this??" ran thru my mind. After extensive conversation over the matter the decision was made for Jamey to begin the process of applying for a commision in the US Army Nurse Corps. He had a huge list of fabulous reason why he wanted to do again serve his country. But at the top of that list was the adorable little person pictured above, and his desire that I be able to be a stay at home mama to said wonderful heart of our hearts. Jamey despite his non-traditional, heavily tat'd exterior is a traditional family man, with super traditional family man values. The minute that he took that 5 lb 6 ounce little person in his arms and decided to be her father his every thought has been about her. Month two of her life he insisted we start her college savings plan and that's savings plan in not up for negotiation in our budget.

Now I did sorta spoil this stay at home mom idea by returning to work in January and I feel that I have the best of both worlds. I get to work a few days a month and still be the nurse that my degree allows me to be. I still get to care for my patients and socialize with my coworkers. But now I get to be a more active part of Alyssa's life. I no longer feel like I'm struggling to juggle the demands of being a mom and a wife, as well as a person with a full time work schedule. I get to spend more time with my husband and it's made us better parents I'm happy to say. I'm very blessed and I'm happier today than I've probably ever been. On my days off I get to finger paint and bake cookies, make puppets outta Jamey's socks, and look at spiders, lizards, snails and dragonflies that live in our backyard. Unfortunately I also know the lines to all the Disney princess movies as

Life as a stay at home mom has it's own challenges. I used to be so envious of those mom's that I knew were stay at home mommy's when I wasn't one myself and now I know their jobs are much more difficult than my job as a full time ICU nurse in a high acuity hospital ever was, and some of those mommy's wished they were going to work everyday! I got to leave the ICU at the hospital but mommyhood is full time 24 hours a day/7 days a week. I happily sport the 'mom' look regularly. I once showed up to a meeting at Alyssa's school sporting a ponytail with rolled up blue jeans, flip flops and a faded heavy metal t-shirt....not exactly CEO material there! And I frequently grocery shop in workout pants, HEY they are indeed comfortable and perfect for crawling around on the floor pretending to be a puppy, and building forts under the dining room table. I never really was the fashion diva anyway!

The best part of being a stay at home mom is I feel like I'm reliving my own childhood. Sometimes I don't get the laundry done or the floors scrubbed because we are to busy playing in the rain or running from crocodiles, and I'm totally good with that. I'm watching my daughters imagination bloom (and what an imagination it is!). Around every corner is something new and exciting. She goes from being a princess to a monster in about 2.2 seconds. She dances in tutu's and tiara's and wears eye patches and yells "grr me matey!" She makes mud pies and sprays me with the waterhose and reintroduced her aging mama to running through the sprinkler. She eats basil and tomatoes off the vines in the backyard and exclaims that they are "Delightfully Delicious!" Life is good and I'm so happy that I get to be this little girls full time mommy, who happens to escape to the hospital for adult time a few shifts a month.